Yocahu

WordPress YocahuYokahú overlooks El Yunque, a fertile rainforest in la Isla del Encanto with its own climate and ecosystem. Stand atop the 142-story tower and close your eyes.  Listen to waterfalls, rare birds, and tree frogs indigenous to the land.  Take in the true scent of green.  Open your eyes and witness to the north the Atlantic Ocean lapping Luquillo.

Ave Maria, what horrors befell on September 20th?  Winds pulled trees from their roots like a giant picking off lint from its shirt.  The brave mountains fought back.  They battered the ferocious storm, but not without loss.  Mangled trees lie everywhere.

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This Much Was Clear

WordPress Huricane

It was the day before my seventh birthday. I was in Puerto Rico where my grandparents watched over me while my mother, far away in New York, delivered my baby brother.  The New York landscape exuded grayness with its tall buildings, concrete pavements and elevated trains.  Puerto Rico exuded life, its air pregnant with the greenest greens and azure skies.  On my seventh birthday, though, trees bowed in every direction and shook their leaves.  Midday darkened.  Winds howled.  Hurricane Faith swept across the island.  Today I remember the fear I buried long ago as Hurricane Irma barrels across the Atlantic.

Twenty

WordPress HandMel stared at her twenty-year-old hands, similar to her mother’s without spots or crinkled skin. She pondered the next big move.  Schooling was behind her.  So was her steady boyfriend.  In other words, everything that tied her to dependence.  It was time to step into a fully grown up world and embrace the challenges that lay ahead.  She knew two things for sure:  that someday she’d buy a house like the one that she grew up in, and that she’d want her own twenty-year-old.  The question was how to get there on her own, without the crutches of her past.

Tell Me A Story

Elena stood by the doorway.  She carried a haughty demeanor with the ease of someone born into old money.  Except that she wasn’t, as her mother-in-law pointed out whenever the subject matter of grandchildren surfaced.  The old woman spat that Elena was nothing but a barren imitation.  Yet, nothing in her posture or poise betrayed Elena’s humble beginnings.  Not then, not now.

Elena moved to the windowsill, ears fixed on the monitors.  Her gaze settled on a family of four across the hospital’s courtyard, the little girl skipping.  She waited for the sound of freedom, the old woman’s last exhale.

Michael

His earliest memories of adult love involved pain. Dad beat Mom because he loved her.  Mom accepted Dad sleeping around because she loved him.  Mom and Dad beat the children for their own good because they loved them.  In the middle of the night, he’d overhear thrusts and groans coming from Mom and Dad’s bedroom in the name of love.  It’s little wonder he grew up afraid of grown up love.  Love equaled violence and he wanted no part of that for himself.  He lived a Peter Pan existence and surrounded himself with innocent children incapable of eliciting complicated love.

 

Poison Behind the Throat

 

“Bendicion mami,” said Elena.  She reached up and kissed her mother for the daily blessing.

Her mother wrinkled her nose. “Fó!  Lávate la boca!”

Elena rushed to the bathroom. The rebuke had become routine.  Up and down, side to side, but no matter how hard she brushed, a strong odor emanated from the back of her throat.  It wasn’t only her mother.  She began to notice classmates avoiding conversations with her.  She withdrew and became the girl with bad breath.  Isolation masked the discomfort behind her throat when she drank her lonely tears. Meanwhile, the lump continued to grow unnoticed.

Unconditional Love

Linda’s wiring system was such that she recoiled at human touch.  Sounds screeched in her head.  Images loomed large.  The world was terrifying.  She self-preserved in an invisible shell.  There she rocked herself to sleep and blocked out sounds by counting or quietly reciting songs.  Today she’d fall under the wide autism spectrum, but back then, “What a strange child,” were common whispers.  Her mother felt rejected and her father alienated.  Her little sister, though, refused to be ignored.  She nagged and prodded.  She hugged even when hugs went unreturned.  Eventually she cracked the shell and forged a forever bond.

Greetings From The Other Side

I’d occasionally run into Brian standing in front of the Shubert Theater. A gregarious sort of fella, with wavy hair and smiling eyes.   I’d wave to him and he’d happily wave back, adding his unmistakable personal touch, “How are those headaches of yours?”  I’d continue on my journey to the Port Authority anxious to tell my husband I had seen his cousin.  I still feel his presence in Shubert Alley, as if guarding his beloved theater.  This morning when I passed by, I whispered, “I attended your baby’s wedding.  She was radiant.”  He replied, “I know.  I saw you there.”

 

Fishers of Men

“Follow Me and I will make you fishers of men,” said Jesus, according to Matthew 4:19. And it has been thus ever since.  And it has been the basis of most religions, whether Mormon, Scientologist, Muslim, Catholic.  All religion counts on recruiting new members and increasing its population to find the way to eternal life.  Why so much strife, then?  Why brother against brother in the name of salvation?  We need to strip down to our bare essentials and reconfigure what is truly important and necessary in our individual lives.   And then, maybe then, in our humility, we’ll embrace each other.

Too Close for Comfort

Elias’ feet turned in and his toes faced one another other. He hobbled all day long all around town with bare feet, muttering under his breath.  From a distance, he looked like an eleven-year-old boy, or perhaps it was my nearsightedness rendering me incapable of distinguishing features.  The first time I got a close look, his cragged face revealed day-old stubble, just like my grandfather.  Every morning my grandfather left the house clean shaven smelling of Aqua Velva.  Every evening he’d return with prickly stubble smelling of rum.  Close up, Elias reminded me of my grandfather.  The resemblance discomfited me.